The Loss of My First Reader

I want to apologize for being MIA for so long. I had some issues with my internet provider… and by issues I mean they canceled my internet and the four subsequent orders for service.

I finally gave up and went with someone else. Very good. And then I lost a dear friend suddenly. She was my first reader. And I don’t mean first reader as in the first person I showed my stuff to, I mean my first reader ever. Of course, losing my reader isn’t the thing… it’s that she’s the first person I ever felt safe exposing myself that way. I said this, to her, at the time:

I love you too. You’re the only person in the whole world I could show this to. I don’t know how to put into words what that means, but it’s very special to me.

I don’t guess that actually says all that much to the untrained eye, but that was the best thing. She knew.

Anyway. I’m back. I’m going to keep pushing on because even when it makes me crazy, it makes me whole. And because that’s what she’d have done. And she’d have kicked my ass if I quit.


  1. Reading this I thought it was very enlightening. I actually appreciate you bothering and energy to put this post together. Again I find myself shelling out far too much time both reading through as well as placing comments. However so what, it absolutely was still worthwhile!

    Spam Snark!: I’m thinking this spam commenter is slamming my lack of activity–which, okay. Fair enough, lol. I’m leaving the comment but you lose the URL, spammer!

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